Where have I been?
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Where have I been?
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Alllrighty then....well this past weekend was a 3 day for me! best thing ever..i took off friday cause i had to get a colposcopy done..ugh not fun..but my doctor was soo damn hot it didnt bother me. oh my he was hot. im gonna marry him. anyways..they found some cervical dysplasia dont know what the hell that is. not worried about it cause im invincable right? so that day off led to 3 days straight in bed..literally only got out of bed to eat. wow it was amazing..my body is just so run down...i dont do anything thats why i cant handle the stress i have. i need to start working out and it will all be good to go. i need to quit drinkin thats for sure...but not ready for that and definatly need to quit smoking...def not ready for that. i really got some me time..which i needed..even though i slept through all my me time..is that still considered me time?? my brain is on overload and i dont like it. is it selfish that i need to start thinkin more about myself?? and makin myself happy? i just dont know...im pretty self involved already i think..im not one of those people that cares about other peoples problems..shit that sounds awful i dont mean it in a bad way hard to explain...i really do just babble on and on..nothing i say is ever worth reading...it will get better maybe ;)
Ok so i've been thinkin lately ...uhh shock i know..but the whole reason why i started a blog was to just bitch a lot. and i havent even done that yet..geez i need to bitch. haha i hate complaining though...like hate hate it. i dont like to burden people with my problems at all. i dont like for anyone to know when im upset. i have trouble admitting when im sad or anything at all is going on. i just brush it off and forget about it. i am always the extremely happy person..always hyper always tryin to make people laugh..dont like to see anyone in a bad mood. im on prozac though..aka a fuckin lifesaver. i would recommend that shit to anyone having a bad day. those little pill are absolutely amazing. not only do they make you feel good..but they make tears non existant. im for real..if you dont take them get them!! some people are against stuff like that..i understand..im not ..im actully all for drugs!! ; ) ok anyways..so my new mission is to blog everyday a lil bit to try to get myself to realize that im truly a badass person and i need to realize that <---check that...see ...cant be a serious person at all =) anyyyyhew really im gonna do this ..i mean hell if i went and saw a shrink they would tell me to start writing shit down anyways...so technically im saving myself a bunch of money..maybe i should be a psych doc!! ill just tell everyone to blog...does this post make me sound like i have issues...HAHA its not like that at all ..i do have issues but not enough to put me in a straight jacket..so if u are reading this i am not a fuckin nut...im just a seed as of right now!! BAHAHAH i feel better already
OK so the hair got bleached and i looked like a 2 dolla prostitute ...so this is what had to happen..ive always wanted to dye my hair all dark but was a chicken shit! so now i did it..i like it!! its different..ive had blonde hair my whole life..kinda hard to get used to..but im ready for change...i need a lot of change....
My 4th of July!!
My fourth wasnt anything extreme at all...all it did was rain!!! i did get to spend some time with my family during the day we cooked out and all of that good stuff!! I didnt even get to see fireworks!! other than the random ones that people around town let off..some were impressive..some not! but me and some friends ended up going out to the bar...(shockin i know) why are there so many christmas movies on? i am watching home alone 2 lost in new york again today..it was on yesterday too. sup with that.
just needed to share this video..its showtime!!
ok this is me..im gonna start a blog. dont know what im going to blog about but im going to do it. im sure i wont have any problem s typing cause i could talk all day. shouldnt be too hard. and plus i have a lot of issues that i can blog about. not ready to put stuff out there yet. but we'll get to that. i wonder if anyone will even read this? are you reading it? i bet you are? ok so just a lil background on myself...im 24 years old ..absolutely gorgeous...haha i think so? is that conceited? ohh well i guess im conceited! ok anyways...im an oddball...my thought are so out there sometimes i dont understand myself..but that makes me different and thats what i love about myself. and it really helps when you wanna say something a nd nobody else will say it!! dang my first blog and i already sound like im the most confident person in the world!!! haha ok lets see here..im gonna post this one and go see what it looks like..im learnning give me a break bitches

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